Be strong.

 Last Sunday I got news from a friend. He told me that he was leaving the country soon. The moment I read that text message I really wanted to cry, but I just can't because I'm out with my family. So I tried to hold back my tears and pretend that I'm just fine.

When we arrived home, I was able to talk to him again. The conversation went good. No tears, no sad thoughts. We tried to lighten up the conversation. He even said that we should just laugh because that's all we can do now. So that night went well. I was able to talk to him just like the old times, we had random conversations, sharing random and funny things, typical kulitan, but of course, guarded. My twin's definitely back.

The next day, I felt like everything is still normal not until the moment when I was praying for him. Suddenly tears roll down. I can't help but to cry while praying. Asking God to give me a strong heart so I'll be able to endure this pain.

I really don't know what will happen for the coming months. I want to spend time with him while we can. But of course, I can't just decide on my own. I can't be just easily carried away with my emotions. I need God's direction. I'm praying to God to give us the chance to bond before he leaves.

Parting ways is one of the things that I don't like. But what else can I do? I can't just cry everyday and make my life miserable because he's leaving soon. I need to accept the truth. I know God has a higher purpose why he let things happen this way. I just need to hold on to His promise.

Perhaps the reason he was separated from you for a little while was that you might have him back for good.  (Philemon 1:15)

Life goes on. I need to be strong.

Words left unsaid.

True love isn't just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or embrace, before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid.

For me this is one of the power line from the book I Kissed Dating Goodbye. After reading the book, I contemplated and had a quick self-evaluation of my actions in the past. I learned how to act well when it comes to love. And what do I mean with that?

Simple. 

By waiting for the right time and not being easily carried away with emotions.

Love is..

Imagine that you're in a class and you really can't understand your lessons no matter how hard you try. And the finals week is fast approaching. What will you do? You have two options here. Whether to ask for a tutor, or try hard to study the lesson on your own.

That's what we are when it comes to love. Most of us, doesn't really understand what real love is. This world has given us a lot of meaning of love. Our mind is polluted with so many lies about love. We need a tutor to help us understand what true love is. That is God. He is the best love guru of all.

There is no greater love than to lay down one's life for one's friends. (John 15:13)

Every girl's dream.

I attended a debut yesterday (that was hours ago lol) and I suddenly remember the time that it was my turn. My 18th birthday. July 23, 2011. That special day.

There's a sudden flashback of all the things that happened that night. That special night.
The feeling of being with the people you love. And also, the attention that you get.

Imagine this.. You go to a party where everyone is well dressed, and as you walk down the red carpet all eyes are on you. Realizing that it is you who is the star of the night. You are the center of attention. You are the most beautiful and most important person in the occasion. You are the debutante!

I guess it is every girl's dream to have a big celebration during their 18th birthday, but not all has the chance to celebrate their debut like that. And so, I am forever thankful for having a loving parents, who really wants the best for me. And of course I thank God for giving me the privilege to spent my debut like that, without Him that will not happen.

Btw, July 20 is my real birthday but we just celebrated it on the 23rd (Saturday)

My P5 Pledge

I was inspired with my friend who keeps every P5 she gets everyday. Its her way of saving up money, and I must admit its a good technique of saving up money. You will gain more money when you save P5 instead. And so, I also started doing this P5 pledge just last November 2011. Up until now I save every P5 I get. It's one way of disciplining myself also, because at first its really hard to save the P5 coins. I mean, at one point or another you will forget not to use it. Lol.

Anyways, P5 pledge has been really helpful to me. During those times that I am really broke, I will just open my piggy bank and *poof* instant money for me.

And just this summer. I opened my piggy bank again and counted all my coins. (Btw, sometimes I also save P10 coins) Hooray for instant money. I got almost 700+ from my savings. I guess the time frame was from January up to this day. I know its just a small amount, because for the past months, I was not able to regularly save coins. Huhu. My bad. :p

Anyways, I am just happy because I have money for summer.Its time to use my money. I think I'll be investing this for the camp. I need to use these coins in order that by June I'll start again my P5 pledge. :)

Live by the moment.

Daydreaming about the future. That's really one of my favorite hobby. Thinking about what the future will be. How will your life be few years from now. Stuffs like that. I guess its not only me who loves to think about the future, right?


Almost everyone of us is excited about the future. And that sometimes lead us in doing things that are still not appropriate as of the moment. I must admit, I've been in that phase also. But God reminded me this:

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven." 

It is clearly stated Ecclesiastes 3:1 that there's a season for every activity under heaven. There's a right time to study. To live. To die. To love. To work. Name all the activities in heaven! All of it has a perfect time. We don't need to rush things. We'll go all these things as time goes by. But for now, learn to enjoy whatever season you are in, whether you're a student, a single, working, or even married. After all, God will not place you in that season just for nothing. He placed you there for a higher purpose, maybe you need to develop a character- to be more Christ-like, I don't know. It is only God who knows it. 


Thinking about the future is not bad. But dwelling too much on it is sometimes not good. Yes we need active preparation, but we also need to learn how to enjoy the present. Be excited for the future. And live by the moment.

Start saving.

One month to go and we're about to start another school year. Hello senior year! And with that, I realized something, that I really need to start saving my money. I had this conversation before with my roommate and she told me that you need to start saving money while you're still a student. As your college life ends after graduation, and so your allowance will also end. And so, as I face my last year in college I'll really do my best to save my money. I need to start saving my allowance, I know this will be hard but it'll be worth it. After all, its one way of preparing for the future. I cannot depend on my parents for the rest of my life. I need to learn how to be independent.