I am smiling. ☺

I tried not to care anymore, I tried not to show my emotions to you… but at the end of the day, I still think of you and how we used to be. I think of what the future may be. And I can't help but to think of the fact that you’re leaving soon… And it really hurts. 

I’m too tired of crying. In fact, there’s no more tears flowing in my eyes, but the pain in my heart? I can still feel it. Every time I think of that day, my heart pounds, I feel so weak. 

I try not to talk to you about this and just pretend that I am okay, but deep inside I really don’t want you to leave. As much as I want to spend time with you, I just can’t. We’re too busy with our own lives, with our responsibilities, with our works. 

I just pray and ask to God that someday when we’re already ready, He will make a way to lead us back to each other’s arms. Sorry if you feel like I don’t care for you anymore. Actually, I do. I really do, but I try not to show it anymore because I don’t want you to feel the pain I am feeling.


I am smiling, but inside I am dying.