Monday, June 25, 2012

Confirmed & Affirmed.



My dream of being prophesied had finally came true. So there you go, I wanted to share to you guys the things they told me there.


For this blog's sake, I will put into 3 categories all the prophecies they had for me.
  1. Personal
  2. As a student
  3. Ministry
Most of the prophecies about ministry. ;) 


First, about my family and finances.


God has heard all my cries. And he assured me that He is going to be the one who will restore all the broken pieces. I was reminded of Acts 16:31"Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved- you and your household." I am still holding on to this promise. I know that as I work for the advancement of God's kingdom in my campus, He is also at work on my very own family. 


I am also claiming for financial breakthroughs and God assured me again that He is in control of it. Provisions will come along the way. All the papers and expenses needed to be paid before I leave the campus, its all done. God has already made a way for it.


As I continue to become a blessing to other people, God will also pour out blessings into my life. I don't have to be afraid for he has placed so much favor in every areas of my life. 


Student life.


They talked about my position as the Vice Chairperson of AMV COMELEC. They told me that I have a very influential position, and that negative things, accusations will be thrown against me. But I don't have to be afraid because God will fight for me. He is my shield, my defender.


Finally, the highlight of my prophecy. MINISTRY.
"You've been asking for confirmations. You've been asking for signs.. But remember that as you continue to seek me, as you continue to dwell in my presence, as you continue to put me on top of everything, I will bring clarity into your mind." 
When they told me about this I can't help but to cry and laugh at the same time. Why? Because its really true. The words are really exact. I've been asking for confirmations, long long long time ago pa. I've been asking for a Word too. And just this month I had a word. 
Psalm 51:13 MSG Give me a job teaching the rebels your ways so the lost can find their way home. 
I am still praying for this one. Really. So friends please include me in your prayers, I still have one year to go. I still need more confirmations and words. :) 


In line with the above verse is the next prophecy to me. They told me that I'll speak to more women, either casual or deliberate, I will teach them God's ways. Its not my skills nor my talents that I'll use, but its God's word that I'll use to teach them. 


Guess what? I also remembered some of my dreams before. Dreams of talking in front of many people. Plus, I can also remember this dream I had, me and Kuya Francis (one of the Lifebox staff) is studying the bible. Its like he's mentoring me. Something like that. I believe its in line with this. Hehe.  They also told me that God will send people who will speak to me to bring clarity to that calling. People who will also enlighten me.


Plus, they told me as I respond to that calling, I will be satisfied. God will satisfy me in and out. Its not something na "Lord, I'll sacrifice my life, my dreams for this." No its not going to be like that. And there's only one thing in my mind when they told me about this, and that's going full time. Haha! 


They also told me to surround myself with godly women. Women who will push me to the calling God has for me. Women who will push me to be the best woman I can be. And its really funny because after all the things that happened to me for the past month, this is actually one of my prayers. To have deeper relationships with women, most especially to my deepbench family. 
"You've been proven faithful with the small things. Now is the time, God is entrusting you with bigger things." 
Its not only about material things, nor position in school, but even in ministry. God will entrust bigger things, but do not be afraid, nor be scared. God has equipped you, He has called you in the right timing. Its not about my skills, nor my talents; its all about God's anointing. 


Lastly, they also talked about my availability. Its like, 
"I don't know what to do, but here I am.
Actually it has always been my prayer. For God to use me. I have been crying out this to Him. God can use so many people out there, but here I am pleading for Him to choose me, to be part of his plans. And I was assured that God has chosen me.. He has chosen me to make a difference in this generation. 


I was really comforted with all the words they told me there. All I can do is cry while they prophecy to me. :") My mind is now clearer than before. I don't need to rush things. I am going to be patient and wait until God fully reveal to me his plans for my life. For now, I will just enjoy my season- student life. And lets see for the coming years what will happen. ;)  

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Last OMF Literature Book Sale.


So we were able to buy 49 books for a price of 1100php only. We saved almost 10K. Amazing isn't? :)

And from the 49 books, I got 8 for a price of only 110php. Two of those books I gave to my friends, and the remaining 6 is now on my shelf. Waiting to be read. ;)








Hopefully I could finish even just half of them by the end of the year. I'm not really into reading books. But I find these books interesting. Hmm. 


I am smiling. ☺



I tried not to care anymore, I tried not to show my emotions to you… but at the end of the day, I still think of you and how we used to be. I think of what the future may be. And I can't help but to think of the fact that you’re leaving soon… And it really hurts. 

I’m too tired of crying. In fact, there’s no more tears flowing in my eyes, but the pain in my heart? I can still feel it. Every time I think of that day, my heart pounds, I feel so weak. 

I try not to talk to you about this and just pretend that I am okay, but deep inside I really don’t want you to leave. As much as I want to spend time with you, I just can’t. We’re too busy with our own lives, with our responsibilities, with our works. 

I just pray and ask to God that someday when we’re already ready, He will make a way to lead us back to each other’s arms. Sorry if you feel like I don’t care for you anymore. Actually, I do. I really do, but I try not to show it anymore because I don’t want you to feel the pain I am feeling.


I am smiling, but inside I am dying.