2011 Christmas Wishlist

FILED 2012 Planner

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 Hoping to have one this Christmas! :)

A new set of FINELINERS

Dong-A or Staedtler will do, 

but please not the Stabilo brand. I don't like it.

Strengths Finder book

Been praying for this since summer, hopefully I can get one.

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For now here's my Top 3 wishes. Hehee. 

He absolutely answers prayers.

There's so many things that happened to me during the past weeks. So many answered prayer, and I'm really thankful to God for He really knows the desires of my heart. <3 :">

One of the things that I'm really grateful right now is the change that I can see in his life.
Yesterday we had a creative brainstorming for our Christmas party, and to my surprise he was there. I'm really happy to work with him again. Even though we're not in the same committee, still the fact that he's one of the people behind this upcoming event makes me happy. :")

Little by little, I know he's coming back again to the family. I'm really praying for his spiritual growth.. I know he has the potential to be one of the leaders of the next generation, and I know that God has prepared so many things for him. :)

I'm really thankful to God for He is really working in his life. ♥

Kumusta ang Puso?

Madalas ito ang tinatanong sa akin ng mga ate ko kapag nagkikita kami. Naaalala ko pa, nung semstarter namin last November 12-13. Ilang beses ako natanong nito. Nakakatawang isipin, sobrang concern talaga nila sa akin, ang sweet lang. <3

So yung totoo, kumusta nga ba talaga ang puso ko? Aaminin ko ngayon medyo naguguluhan ulit ako. Ay mali, hindi pala naguguluhan.. Nagiging emosyonal lang ako ngayon, pero alam ko naman yung kung anong dapat kong gawin. Kungbaga eto na naman ako sa nilalabanan ko yung sarili ko. Dying of oneself ika nga.

Minsan sumasagi sa isip ko yung mga katagang "Buti pa sila.. o kaya "Sana ako rin.." Hindi ko naman maiiwasan yun e, kasi kahit anong gawin ko tao pa rin ako at normal lang sa isang tao na makaramdam ng mga ganung bagay. Pero hindi ko hinahayaang magpadala sa emosyon ko, alam ko kasing walang patutunguhan yon. At isa pa, hindi ko nago-glorify si God sa pag-iisip ng ganun.

Siguro may onting inggit kapag nakikita ko yung mga kaibigan ko. Lalo na kapag schooldays, pang gabi kasi ako, tapos may naghihintay sa kanila hanggang sa matapos kami sa class. Sasabayan silang mag-dinner tapos ihahatid pauwi. Typical. Minsan napapaisip ako at nasasabi kong Lord sana ako rin. Pero kapag ganun na yung iniisip ko, nire-rebuke ko na agad yung sarili ko. Lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na Kalma lang Tine. God is still writing the best love story for you. Wag kang mainip, okay?

So ngayon, okay lang ako. Medyo may nami-miss pero ayos lang. Hindi ko na lang masyado iniisip yun, kung maaari, kung makakaya, ayoko na muna talaga isipin. Gusto kong mag focus muna ako ulit sa pagse-serve kay God.

Saka isa sa realizations ko ngayon, madami pa akong dapat malaman, madami pa akong dapat matutunan. Gusto kong ma-enjoy muna itong season na ito. At alam ko ganun ka rin naman. Gusto ko munang mas mag-grow tayo as friends. Lets take one step at a time.

Isa pa, ayokong masayang kung ano man ang plans ni Lord para sa akin dahil lang sa atat ako. In His time, I know He'll give me that someone. ♥

You know what's awkward?

Its when one of your close friends tells you that he likes you. 

Asdfghjkl. I really don't know how to handle situations like this. :\

High school pa lang kasi ako hirap na ako sa mga ganitong situation. Alam mo yun, close friend mo tapos malalaman mong may something pala siya para sayo?! What the? Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero kasi naiilang talaga ako kapag nalalaman kong may something sa akin yung kaibigan ko. And worse, may tendency akong mapalayo na sa kanya dahil nga sa naiilang ako. :/

Nakakainis lang, kasi ngayong college na ako, nangyayari na naman ito. Today, someone told me that he likes me. And hindi lang yun, kabarkada ko pa siya mula 1st year. Tapos nung nakwento ko ito sa isa ko pang kabarkada, ang sabi niya lang sa akin ay:

Ngayon lang siya sayo nagtapat? Nung first year ko pa yun napapansin eh.

Ay grabe lang. Aamin ko, nung first year kami medyo may kutob na ako sa kanya pero lahat ng yun nawala na paglipas ng panahon. Tapos ngayon, eto umamin sya. Grabe lang. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko, paano sa pasukan neto? Hindi ko na alam. Sana lang mawala yung awkward feeling. Ang hirap kase, same barkada pa man din kami, tapos same church pa. Ay pambihira.

Prophetic?

 I don't know but there are really some dreams of mine that do come true. I'm not sure if its just coincidence or am I really gifted? I've been praying for this because if its really a gift from God, I should be careful in using this.

Follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophecy. (1 Corinthians 14:1)

 Far from the common people who usually don't remember their dreams, I usually remember almost all of my dreams. My friend once told me that its really weird because normal people only remembers their dreams 10-12 minutes the moment they wake up, but with me? Its a different story.

I've discovered this when I was still in high school. I had this dream that I was in my classmate's house. I'm with my group-mates doing our project.. I thought it was just another normal dream. But then, weeks after that,  we had a project and we need to go to my classmate's house for it. It was actually my first time to go to their place, and to my surprise everything that I have seen in my dream was right. The place, it really look exactly what is in my dream.

That was just the start, from then on I keep on having weird dreams. Some do come true, and some are just weird dreams.

In Summer 2010, I had a number of weird dreams..

First was when I dreamed of Jeff (my college buddy). In my dream, he told me that Sarah was the girl she used to love for a long period of time. Then the next day, I told him that and I was surprised with his reaction. He told me that my dream was right. Actually, I already knew that he had a thing with Sarah when they were still in high school, but I didn't know that it was her whom he loved the longest.

I also had a dream that there's a fire in one of the AMV/carpark's room. Few days later, I received a news from my friend that one of the establishments in our building was caught on fire. For the Thomasians, you may heard about the fire in Sticks & Bowls. That's the establishment I am telling you.

Another dream of mine was somehow related to the past, in history. I really find it weird. A had a number of dreams that night, different events in different places. Then the next day, I was watching the news, and in the portion wherein they discuss the historical events that took place on that day (April 9 ata yun) I was surprised because most of my dreams is related to it. First was the Titanic, and the second is the Death March.

Weird, right?

I even had a dream wherein I actually saw my friend's future husband. And when I told her this, I was surprised because we almost had the same dream. I mean, the features of the face of the guy, its the same.

And last night, I had another weird dream. It was about my friend, a very close friend of mine.
In my dream, he confessed that he loves me. That, the reason why he can't look for a new girlfriend is that he was in love with me.. All along I was the girl he was looking for.

I find it weird, yet somehow nakakakilig. Its because I had a thing for him before.. Yes, actually he's my first love. But I only sees him as a brother and a very good friend now, actually I can consider him as my best friend.

Then, just this morning I saw a post from him.

Sino kaya yung babaeng palaging nasa panaginip ko :O wala kasi siyang mukha, di ko pa siguro siya nakikita. :)))))) ♥♥♥

This made me more eager to know whether that dream of mine is true or will come true. Haha! Actually I told him that I dreamed of him last night, but I didn't told him who the girl he was talking about in my dream. Of course, I don't want to preempt things. I want to confirm it first before telling him the whole story.